Need advice on a friend?

You have to understand life, progression, and karma to really appreciate what I have to say to you. There is no future in you trying to rekindle this "friendship", and I say that because what you really want is your first love back in your life so you can possibly have your cake(Brad) and eat it too(Billy). Realize that you and your boyfriend have a child to raise and it is now time to move on from doing stupid crap as you have in the past. The entire thought process you are involved in right now ures the Answers community that you care more for Billy than you do for the father of your child! If you T-R-U-L-Y understood that cheating on your boyfriend with this guy was a mistake in the first place, and you have now T-R-U-L-Y grown up, then guess what? You would leave this guy alone. Focus on being a great mother and girlfriend to those you have and stop trying to put weeds in your lawn. Cause those that believe the gr is greener on the other side,never stop to look at their own for what it's worth. If you continue with this negative weed planting in your own yard, then you won't have a lawn or life worth anything. Maybe that was too deep! What I'm saying is....Chill, and fertilize your own yard and watch it grow to be something you can be proud of, that is if your all grown up!