I was badly abused as a child what do I do now?

I was abused as a child as well. It only effects you if you let it. If you can't stand to be undressed, take a few long showers or baths so that you can get more used to it and realize it isn't a punishment. If you want a relationship, go out and try to find one. The only way to get over your fears is to face it head on. Good luck.